the pursuit of happiness

Revising my Art History this afternoon has given me some great quotes with regards to art, mass culture and materialism. Humans as a breed are like magpies, enticed by shiny objects, hoarding, posessions, and items that help / enrich their lives. Sure, i like buying new things like everyone else, but lately seeing stuff on television and the internet scares me. The extent of materialism grows every day. But this is a guilty person speaking, i bought an mp3 player, not a big expensive ipod or anything, but a small player for ease of carriage. The things that enrich my life are those we take for granted everyday. the sunshine, friends, family, air, the sea coast in the morning when the dawn is awkening, love, sex, smiles, tears, watching a true story movie on tv and sobbing into a tissue, promising yourself to be a better person. Lately i feel like im fucking up everything i touch at times, but then i remember the Victoria Wood quote 'Il probably blunder about through life, buggering it up like everyone else.' Cosmetic surgery - ok, im going to side with the actress Kate Winslet on this one, and age gracefully (well, disgracefully!!) why get your face sliced, diced, pulled, stretched etc so you look like a cat, permenant smile? Does it really matter if your teeth are not scarily white like snow, when in reality teeth have a slight creamy hint anyways? My dentist said my teeth were in good condition (ok, missing a few, but thats life) they are clean, washed at least twice a day, i eat fruit and veg everyday, bit overweight, and im not a big musclely Falcon-type porn star (though id love to work up to a really hunky body! but im not going to fall into the trap of using thousands of pounds to get implants to cheat nature) Thats the whole deal of it, cheating nature. BUt as we have seen, humans who fuck mother nature around, reap the disasterous consequences - severe weather going haywire etc. It feels like we're heading towards armageddon, and we bringing it on ourselves. As long as i can be with the man i love, il love and protect him til the ends of time.

fed up

I am sick and tired of this bloody country at times. How much longer will these 'politicians' pass the buck back and forth to each other, avoiding actually working at all costs (and still getting paid very handsomely) i hope they are running out of excuses not to work. The people of Northern Ireland are going to turn on you, fat lazy shites. For fuck sake, the apathy is dam awful. I was reading in a magazine about gays in the American Military, how if you are caught being gay and doing sexual acts for say a magazine or video, you get demoted, fined, bullied etc, butif you shoot and kill someone in custody 'by mistake' (using that term very loosely) a quick fine and its brushed under the carpet. I dont agree with war anyway, its all to do with money. Humans in political power seem to have this delusion that we the public are deeply stupid and believe every word they say. WHY do we continuously vote in conservative, racist, homophobic, lazy, selfish bastards? 'What fools these mortals be'
to actually think that being gay is worse than murder....erm i cannot see the logic here. No, the problem is in their head, they have a God complex and use the christian god as their attacking force. And they love to quote leviticus...even though that was written by a human, a mistake making, prejudiced human. They shout about Sodom and Gomorrah, even though they dont complete the story, by the way they were destroyed because of their refusal to welcome in and shelter people. not down to the fact that some gay people lived there. The Christians in the story even went as far as to offer their wives and daughters, as long as they didnt flirt with the men...hmmm male chauvanism at its best!! "ere, ave the wife, dont touch my cock, backs to the walls boys, they can 'ave our women, who gives a fuck, they do our dishes/food/everything really" Also the story of David and jonathan in the Bible. Read it carefully, you will see 2 accounts of this story, one where David is a bloodthirsty fighter, tough testosterone filled heterosexual, raping women he wants etc and getting away with it cause he is a man, and one where he cares, and is in love with Jonathan. I cannot wait til the next Gay Pride here, oh i shall laugh at the fundamentalists with their dour faces, the messages of hate and doom. Just because you cannot have slaves, and that women are now in positions of power (about time too!) you have to attempt to crush anything that does not fit in your tiny tiny world (and it is tiny!). Get a life and leave us alone, we have no interest in you and your sad bigoted hate filled ways, actually feel sorry for you sometimes. Plus, its a bit creepy how you're so obsessed with what goes on in other peoples bedrooms!! Right im off to do more revision, last exam tomorrow, just needed to have a rant!
love and blessings to everyone (i mean everyone!)
Stuey
xxx

Work, Study, Friends, Life

Its quiet in work at the moment, nothing to file, nowt to fix, nowt to do really! Brought a pack lunch with me (thought after a bowl of oatmeal with fruit, then eggs on toast im not really hungry at the moment!). Decided to bring the revision notes with me as well, good opportunity to get stuff done! though i have absolutely no idea how i am going to memorise 4 chapters of exegetical study on Galatians and James stuck into my head for my exam on monday, not to mention a load of Paul Theology (James is ok, but Galatians and Pauline theology are so BORING!) Ah well! Monday at 14:30pm is my first exam, after that im being picked up all being well by my good friend Vince to travel to their house and order my laptop (WOOHOO!) and of course il get a bottle of Gin on the way to theirs, always goes down well haha. and some wine, but i dont think il drink much, as il need to get stuck into my Art History revision for an exam on saturday - i mean what a day to have an exam on, i suppose it gives me an excuse to go into Belfast city centre after and buy a new pair of jeans (in desperate need! there are some serious hole moments going on in the crotch between the leg area, not good especially if im wearing my unflattering undies - those ones when all your good fancy ones are festering in the laundry basket!). David and Vince bought me an internet router thinger for Christmas, so i can chat and email from bed, living room, anywhere really! (thanks guys! you rock!) so with beer provided by moi, David said he will connect and set up the router box for me. I dont know what id do without those guys, they are so important to me, love them very dearly.
Okies, time to get back to doing some revision and wandering around the office, cadging a ciggy off a comrade! Y'all have a fantastic day,
love and blessings
Stuey
xx